I'm a guy in his 20s who's sexually aroused by the thought of being a little g*rl.

When I was 12-14 years old, I developed an aggressive ped0philic attraction. I also developed autoped0philia--I felt sexual arousal at the thought of being a little girl myself. At 14 and a half years old, the attraction stopped, but the autopedophilia aspect of it has remained with me for more than a decade at this point.

I'm a highly sensitive person, and this condition has greatly devastated my life severely. I feel very very weak, lack basic common sense, am very slow paced, cannot think or act fast, etc. I feel weak like a child. Iiterally am in a disability program. I really hate my life as I'm unable to do anything really. There are no jobs anywhere whete i live. I can't find any job at all.

I'm a very reclusive and lonely person who is never really around anyone, much less around underage children. I have zero friends and no real connections. I don't feel much of a strong attraction to anyone underage now, but just the thought of having a daughter one day is arousing enough.

All the sexual thoughts that i have are full of a desire and fantasy of being compassionate. And I'm a very warm, empathic person, so the thought of harming anyone especially a child is something that terrifies me and i would never do that. I have zero thoughts of sadism, psychopathy, etc.