Scared that he won't care for me, after he sees me for me.

Having BPD feels like absolute hell most of the time. A lot of people can say that, but do you know where it hurts the absolute most? Love. It hurts so much in love.

This guy, I've liked him for five years. I've even dated and gotten into really bad relationships because I wanted to have someone who felt like him. I fell for him again. And I can have that chance again with him. We're not stupid anymore, and I can truly reach out this time.

But I'm scared, admittedly. Yeah, sure, we have the time now, and I want to love him, but what if he truly sees the "BPD" that everybody cries about and talks about being so "evil"? I'm scared of that. What if the BPD scares him away?

He told me he loved me first, ever since we were kids. But my biggest worry is, what happens when he loses that love? And he abandons me for having this "Condition".

Chat, if I lose this one, I'm done with love. </3