Spiraling

Hey guys, I’m really spiraling right now, I am thinking about alll these things I’ve done in my past when I was 19. Almost 10 years ago, like one of the examples I would send guys nudes when I was like 18-19, and I’m scared they are going to come out or something, I keep telling myself it was 10-11 years ago, but I am just spiraling. How do you stop these thoughts I’m also scared I’ve done my taxes wrong the last 5 years or they messed up on them, and I’m gonna get arrested, I’m scared that I lied to my work last year because I needed important surgery and my boss wouldn’t let me have it off because she didn’t understand it, and so I told her they are removing cancer, ( in reality I was getting surgery for stage 4 endometriosis and remove a cyst and check for ovarian cancer with a biopsy- because 2 of my aunts died from ovarian cancer around my age) but I’m just know I’m not a bad person but I just can’t even deal with anything I’ve ever done bad, which isn’t a lot like maybe 4 things I can think of in 29 years. But I don’t know if it’s guilt or my ocd.. or both. I’m literally so scared I’m gonna hurt myself but I have an appointment with my psychiatrist tomorrow thank god.