Help me please please

I got up midnight anxious

26F Living a solo life as preparing for exams

Please comment section main kounsa exam mat puchhna

In home No social life I opened to Reddit 2 months back when my ex got married I talked to many people in astro group Never knew yahan se log ye connection ye sab banatebhain as i was new

Met a guy he was well doing He desperately wanted to be my friend 14 days of texting from Reddit to i message Things got worse As mujhe dar lag raha tha ki stranger and i didn’t know what if je was telling truth or lie as we met on astro sub I told my bsf she told me not to trust on people met online. Ese ho k i decided to hurt him and we ended mutually

Then later i found out he told me some lies not truth fully

Then after i vowed not to talk to any guy here or not will mess up my mind and heart as mera exam vi hai

Again me 🤡 After 2 months now somehow landed up in talking woth a NRI of 32y old. I didn’t wanted to say anything and keeping my distance We texted on and off for 6 days No flirting nothing Just normal conversation I found him familiar to that previous guy I had told him everything Ki I don’t want to hurt you like that previous guy

He told ke chalega koi tension nahi when ever you want to cut off me you can Maje main rehne ka koi load nahi

He may be understood im getting attached I know too i should not As that guy is too much clear in his head He doesn’t want to marry ever kids no He is opposite lives in USA

I don’t know why Im getting panic attacks midnight As there is no future I dont want to suffer help me please I can’t share this with my best friend as she will terribly judge me for doing same mistake again

I tried to delete the account But i feel If after deleting account i ll come up again

Please please aap log bachalo mujhe

Mera exam 2 months hai Isssal mera 5th attempt hoga Bht crucial year hai please