Struggling to figure out what I want/need/am looking for

I don’t necessarily want someone to give suggestions or advice. Just looking for good folks who have some wisdom to share.

I have a lot of old ways of thinking so some messages or comments that feel loving instead of full of hate and guilt would be nice. I want to be accepting of everything that I’m feeling but it feels scary to think about accepting said feelings considering the habits and thought patterns I grew up learning from society.

If I gain a long term friend or even more from this post well uh duh I’d be so happy. Thanks:)