I deserved to be cheated on

8 years together of me doing nothing for the relationship, what else did I expect to happen? Everything was on her shoulders, she had to pay for everything because my lazy ass couldn't even be bothered to get a part time job. Couldn't be bothered to clean, to cook, to do anything but play games and hang with friends.

Nah, I just sat on my ass all day every day while she worked hard to get us a home, keep us fed and keep us entertained. She never complained once, and we got along so well. I thought all the cuddling, sex and overal good vibes between us was tnough. God I was so fucking blind and stupid. All I had to do was lift a single god damn finger to help her and maybe it would have all been okay.

But it wasn't. she fell in love with and cheated on me with my best friend after I introduced them to each other. I used to put all the blame on the both of them, but as she said, "I can't help who I fall in love with". She'd been stuck with my loser ass for so long, I'm glad she found someone else who was better. It was me that was the problem, not her, not them.

I stole those 8 years from her, and I'm so sorry. Nobody should have to look after their partner like they're a child, but that's how I acted. That's how I was.

I remember her making a tweet after she let me know we were seperating, "Glad that burden is off my shoulders". It cut deep and still stings so much, because it was true. She was my rock and I was her burden. I'm so fucking sorry.