I've got fear of women

I've created a trauma of women. I can't be close to them. Of course, I can be close to my family members women, especially my grandmother and mother, but others? I will start shaking and being very worried and preoccupied. I think that women hate me for some reason - Of course it's not true, but my brain has been doing it for a while, and looks that it doesn't want to stop. If the girl is white and beautiful, it's even worse, I will feel even more worried. If she has those features, I will avoid with all my forces. Once, I went to a mall cuz my family obligated me and there was a group of beautiful white girls of my age. They looked very nice, and, for some reason, my cousin left me alone close to them, and I started shaking and they noticed. I don't remember if they laughed - I think they did though, I feel embarrassed and went to a masculine bathroom. Stayed there for like 10 minutes, crying. I know, it's totally bullshit, for I don't know what to do anymore. I'm almost finishing my school - Yes, my classroom has already girls, but I sit in the opposite side where the majority of them sit, and I avoid eye contact and talking.