I don’t know what to do anymore.

ive just felt so absurdly empty nowadays that i cant do this anymore. and i don’t know how i let just one person do this to me. ive always been scared, ive been scared of getting hurt. thats why i avoided people in the first place. but when i decided to finally let loose, this happened. i meet a guy - we met randomly in april. he was managing a broadcasting channel i was in, and honestly we just clicked. we had similar personalities, similar traits, similar trauma too. i felt so happy and unstoppable bc i found someone just like me. turns out, all this happening resulted in me getting absurdly attached too much and too soon. on april twenty first, he ghosted me. like he started leaving me on seen, and started to make fun of me for the efforts i was making to show him love. all ive ever wanted is to be loved - and actually love. where you tell someone you love them every night before bed or write paragraphs for each other. on may second he sent me this random ass video, out of nowhere. i was pissed and asked him whyd he ghost me, and he said it was “just a phase” and that hes “ghosting everyone”. if u have enough time to post stories and notes, u can reply a text too, right? and then he started saying that we’re strangers and once again started leaving me on seen. i texted him again today and he again left me on seen. i just wanna die at this point idk what to do anymore. anything will help.