i feel really bad

i’ll summarize it the best i can. i’m 21 years old, and i haven’t been feeling okay lately. I’d say it was progressive, with ups and downs, sometimes i feel great sometimes i really don’t. it depends of the day.

Well, today i just don’t feel good. At all. and i’m at work, i still have to be here for 5 more hours, and all i wanna do is cry. I’m feeling so much. I’m kind of upset with my closest friends, and she’s one of the reason i’m feeling like this in a way, so i don’t know who to talk to.

I have a session w my therapist but that’s at 5 pm, so, 6 more hours to get there. I just don’t know what to do with how i feel now. i just feel really really bad and i dont know how to get into another mindset. It’s scary how tired and sad i feel. i dont want anyone here to notice but i also don’t feel like talking at all.