Don’t know if I did the right thing

So I’m here overthinking again. Before being fully done with my ex I called him and told him he broke my heart. I did not mean it because he did not break my heart, he didn’t cheat, lie, or pretended to be someone he wasn’t. I deeply regret telling him that because I don’t want him to think he completely shattered me, as that is not true. I hope he’s well and healing and actually doing the work for himself to be a better partner for others.

He wasn’t a bad partner to me, he just wasn’t emotionally ready to give me what I want and because of our age difference (20 years), and after being divorced for 1.5 years (almost 3 when we broke up), he sure was not ready. I just hope he knows I don’t hate him and my call didn’t affect him.

I CANNOT/WILL NOT contact him and tell him because last time we spoke I needed support with something as I was going THROUGH A LOT and he said it will not be healthy as it would open up old wounds and give false hopes , and he wished me the best in my life.