What happened to me on March 2nd 2010?

The day I think that I "died", the day that I changed states of consciousness permanently. I was 14 at the time, had been having somewhat of an existential crisis, seeking God and deeper understanding. After smoking weed with some friends after school, I entered another world. Disassociation that I have never been able to come out of since.

Confusion, loss of real sense of self etc. Since that time I've grown in my spiritual awareness but it doesn't really matter cause I'm still fucked up. What do I do?