What can daily masturbation lead to?

Anyway, I've been jerking off several times a day since I was about 11 years old. If you think about it, I've been “jerking off” since kindergarten - just rubbing against something and getting pleasure (but that's another story). Lo and behold, I've always wanted to have real sex, not just jerk off for days on end.

I noticed the weirdness when I needed to get my semen analyzed. When the doctor locked me in a room where they just gave me some sort of medical container to cum in, I realized that I literally couldn't cum standing up. I had porn on my phone, I had been abstinent for a week and was very horny, but I just couldn't cum in that position. I ended up lying on the floor and did it the way I always did at home - in the lying down position.

That's when I started to realize that I had been jerking off in a certain position my whole life. But I thought that if I had real sex, I would cum just from the sight of a naked girl, so I didn't consider it a problem. By the way, I also jerk off differently than everyone else: I have a specific point on my glans that I stimulate (maybe that's related too).

I ended up going to a prostitutes with a friend about four days ago. I was very horny, and I was enjoying everything, but I couldn't cum in any way - it was like the sensitivity of my penis was at zero. Time was running out and she suggested I just jerk off to her, which of course I agreed to. The funny thing was that since I was not in a lying position, I could hardly cum at all - literally a couple drops. Although it seemed like I was very horny and real sex was something I had always dreamed of, but there you go.

After thinking it over, I decided to go again a day later, but with someone else. She was VERY beautiful - just my type, just the way I like it. I was even shy and acted confused, she was so attractive to me. And here it was the same story: it was unbelievable that with such a girl I couldn't cum just from sex either, so I jerked off again. But here I already jerked off in the same position as at home, because I couldn't do it any other way. So I literally lay down to jerk off, and she was right next to me.

She was also surprised that I asked for a napkin to remove the lube, because I've never jerked off with lube - I don't even know how to do it. After all that, she asked if I jerk off a lot at home. I replied, “Yes, of course.” She said that's the reason I couldn't cum, that it's a different pressure from my hand and all that. But I literally can't live without jerking off. My max abstinence is 20 days, which is my all-time record.

And yeah, I just can't cum in a different position or even a different style of wanking. Now I don't know what I'm supposed to do. But I wanted to share because I know: a lot of guys just like me might be facing this. Let them be aware.

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