I let anxiety win today, I am very disappointed in myself!

I’ve always suffered because social anxiety!

Especially in high school. After that I worked with it and it kinda started to go away.. but today it won again! That’s because I am last year of my studies and we had a conference.. the professors seem very judgmental.. and I wasn’t super prepared (or maybe it’s just what I think because my low self esteem)..

My presentation was good and very interesting but i couldn’t seem to speak in front of everyone. When i saw the professors.. it wasn’t even that big the class it was just bunch of professors and some students..

And i told my mentor i am leaving can’t do it! Too scared! I got overwhelmed even tho i took xanax too.. i still couldn’t do it!

And I left! I feel so embarrassed and sad cause my mentor/professor is a very nice hard working person… and I disappointed him too..