I only know I loved me when I let her go...

I was listening to that song "let her go" by passenger and I couldn't help but change the word to "me". But the fact is that I don't lack love for her I just realized that I needed me to do something selfish to live again. I needed to leave my marriage in order to find myself again. Living as a support structure in someone else's shadow while they bask in the limelight of social media stardom was eating my soul. Having someone look down on you from the pedestal you placed them on was a difficult thing to walk away from especially when you banked on everything working out and left your career, city and even family behind to be with her. It was a slow death thing a resented crutch and I thought I would never escape. But slowly day by day I'm recovering myself and I'm looking forward to looking forward to things again. I'll be out of this web soon and the goal will be to not fly directly into the next one and maybe avoid webs altogether in the future. Good luck to each and all of you. Much love.