A ritual for the closure I didn’t get.

Had a really bad breakup. From a very toxic, abusive, dependent relationship that I kept secret because I was ashamed of it. So, I’m here suffering alone. My therapist knows and another friend who I don’t want to keep using to talk about the breakup or relationship.

It ended with him yelling and being verbally abusive, then blocking me. Since then I have seen him but he was very guarded and it still feels like there has been no closure. At this point I’m thinking of ways to let go. I wanted it to end but I was too dependent and addicted to the relationship. I just feel like some ritual to let go would be good. Does anyone have any suggestions to what that could look like?

I am sure trying to process and go through this all. I just want to let go of this toxicity, these feelings of dependency,stop obsessing and hoping I run into him. I want to be free of heart ties I have to this awful situation.