my 7 year old dog passed away

my 7 year old dog passed away few minutes ago. this is the 4th dog passed away from a virus last one was 2 yrs ago. the latest one survived the 2 deadly viruses and probably from old age he couldn't take it anymore. here, in our area the veterinarian is shitty and we need to drive kilometers away just to get one. and not related but still connected, my ex and i broke up 6 months ago and now i have another grief to heal from. how shitty is that right? i can't catch a break 😞