I hate myself for loosing my earphones

I'm so overwhelmed with anxiety over something so minor I genuinely have tears in my eyes. I lost them idk where today. I feel so shit, I feel so guilty, I shouldn't have put them in my pockets but I always do that, why today? Why me? Why a stupid pair of wired earphones and why the fuck am I so upset! I think I might have an idea as of where I lost them but to be so fr there's no way I'll be able to get them back. I don't want to spend money on another pair, it'd be stupid especially since my dad just mentioned we struggle to make it to the end of the month. I just want my earphones back. How am I supposed to cam myself down now wtf. I'm actually crying.