tired

im going insane. i just cant deal with this mentally right now. my mental health was horrible few years ago and last year started getting better again, taking control of my life and was actually happy. then this shit happened. like i cant remember waking up and just being happy, because i wake up and see something growing on my lips. its like this thing has taken away any sense of form or happiness, i feel like i wont be able to do things, constant self worrying of my lips, why cant they just be normal? everyday waking up hoping it just went away overnight and it was some bad dream but it doesnt end. ive taken steroids, supplements, drinks, spent tons and tons on moisturizers, and nothing is working. i dont know what to do anymore, i just cannot keep living like this.