My gf told me she was waiting until marriage. Idk how I feel

Hello all,

My girlfriend and I have been seeing each other for about two months now, and have been official for about a month.

Last night, we were cuddling, and she told me that she was ‘waiting until marriage’. She said she was relieved to tell me and was nervous to, and I told her that I loved her and respected that.

Today, I feel weird about it. On the one hand, I do love her and definitely want to respect her wishes, but on the other hand, I feel a little bit disappointed and surprised. (I feel slightly disgusted at my own reaction…i feel like i’m better than this) We were making out frequently when we were together, she sent me freaky reels, and she would guide my hands…places while we were making out. Nor is she particularly religious. So part of me was expecting things to progress in that direction, and I was a little surprised to hear that they wouldn’t.

I know I’m definitely not going to try to change her mind. That feels wrong. I also think that this has surfaced some of my subconscious motivations for being in this relationship with her. She is very attractive and I was friends with her for a bit before this, but I never really vibed with her until she made the first move and started hitting me up. I had just gotten out of an awful situationship and was a little desperate ig? Maybe this is all stupid and just normal.

I really don’t know how to feel/move forward. She told me she loves me even more because of how kind i was to her after she said that. Does anyone have any advice to share? Am I a freak for feeling disappointed? Anything would be greatly appreciated.