i feel like my trauma is irrelevant

I don’t think i’ve posted on here yet. i’ve been thinking a lot lately about this thing that happened to me a long time ago. i never had the space to really process it, especially since the majority of my life I thought it was a dream. i figured it didn’t really matter. when i was five (or younger i don’t remember) i was SA’ed by another minor. he might’ve been twice my age. thinking about it makes me so angry; first of all because i can’t remember anything that happened before or after, and second because i know that even if he did get caught, he would never experience the repercussions that an adult would have for the same crime. people like that make me sick. i know that minors who have been abused at home can adopt those habits and exhibit them to others. i also know that minors who grow up under those circumstances can often become adult abusers themselves. the whole situation is so frustrating and i wish i could get it out of my head forever.