Goodolrant

I'm 18F. I was molested as a child was told to shut up about it . Family narcissistic emotionally abusive neglectfu.iv been feeling so much guilt for neglecting people and generally failing to do daily responsibilities when i was in the thick of everything. Only recently ive been feeling so much better .i was in a hostel i felt safe but then it waslike a switch flipping one day i was happy, really happy for the first time maybe in my whole life and then bam i was back in my worm hole I really thought I made it UK and all the effort I put into healing paid off . Now I'm fucked and I'm done w my course so back home feeling all of it all over again. I'm feeling a bit hopeless and way too tired to work through this all over again sorry half of this doesnt even make sense i just wanted to get it all off