Weird isn't it.

Hey everyone, this is my first post/experience on here, it's 9 PM and I've just finished watching adolescence on Netflix, I'd rate it as pretty remarkable for how well they've portrayed anger and it's dire consequences if not handled appropriately.

Me being me, as soon as the final episode ended I had a fraction of a sec until my next melancholic thought came on, so just to provide a little background, I recently had a breakup and things have been on a roller coaster ever since, well I've been smoking the pain away as usual and it striked me, After every break up or a failed situationship I tend go go into this self created bubble of mine which is all inclusive of isolation, passive/indirect attention seeking mode where in I experience too many mood changes like I cry intensely and then the next moment I'm smiling or end up laughing like I've conquered everything or I'm normally happy the worst part is I'm highly self aware and I know when something's bad for me yet I end up choosing that shit, like one republic said "Everything that kills me makes me feel alive".

Well I'm pretty high and I'll continue the next one tomorrow.