Just to get it off my chest

Today’s my first Mother’s Day that i should have had two children, but instead one of them is sitting on my kitchen counter in an urn. Grief hits you hard some days 😭 been crying about it for three days, the other days my boyfriend was at work, but i couldn’t contain it today. He asked why i was crying and i told him, “one of our children is sitting on our kitchen counter”. I know my boyfriend and i know it was supposed to be endearing but his response was “well we have one” 😔 everything just feels so heavy today