I don’t like when friends are too good to me

Not because I don’t appreciate kindness—I do. But sometimes, it feels suffocating. Like I can’t breathe under the weight of someone else’s love or care.

I start feeling guilty, like I owe them something I can’t give back. I get scared that I’ll disappoint them or hurt them just by being myself. And the worst part is, it makes me want to pull away—not because I don’t care, but because I care too much and don’t know how to hold it all.

It's painful. I wish I could just accept love without fear.