Final Send Off.

I know it's bad to reminisce the good times especially when I'm still tackling this trauma bond, but I'm just really hurt by the TikTok's she sent me just a day before breaking up with me. Completely about love, head over heels kind, and I just wanted to share their content here. First one she sent said "I think my favorite feeling is laughing with you and realizing half way through how much I enjoy you. I don't know what happiness is supposed to feel like, but I think it feels a lot like us. Some people search their whole lives for the kind of love that I found in you. Loving you is the easiest thing I've ever done, and I think it always will be." This one crushed my heart, I remember receiving it while in the bathroom and tearing up. I was comforting her that night through some past trauma that was resurfacing, and getting this in my dms while taking a little pee break made me feel so confident in our relationship, only to be discarded the next day. The next one said "At the end of the day I'd rather retry with you 100 times than lose you forever because we're just two kids learning how to love each other. I knew I loved you whenever I was having a bad day and instead of wanting to be alone, I wanted to be with you. Thank you for the time you've given me, and all you've done for me. Forever grateful that things aligned us to meet." These TikTok's alongside her final text message taking some accountability for her actions, and the lack of a real reason for breaking up besides her own unhappiness, leaves me fully confused, but understanding that it's not working. Normal relationships don't split apart 4 times, normal relationships don't have one partner enduring the entire burden of the other without reciprocity. I really did love her, and I hate that we'll never talk again.