Uncontrollable anger?!

It’s Mother’s Day. Everything was going fine. I’m pregnant at 20 years old and I’m currently living with my mom. And in the process of moving into my boyfriend’s house. Well she just started being so mean to me today for I don’t know what reason just started saying all of these rude things to me. I’m pregnant I’m 20 I realized this morning none of my clothes fit me and it really threw me off I had nothing nice to wear and have to spend all this extra money on maternity clothes. Harsh reality of this morning, not a huge deal, just shitty to think about. So I was already feeling kinda down this morning. My mom started to go crazy on me. I absolutely lost it. I started to throw everything at the walls, shoe rack, chair, anything I could find. I’m screaming at the top of my lungs at her. Never in my life have I ever felt like this. But I’m so ashamed and my mother looks at me like I need to go to some mental hospital. I’m going to be a mom at 20. I don’t know what in the world got into me. I’m so ashamed. I’m so embarrassed. And I’m so scared I hurt my baby. I never lost control like that before. The anger was insane. And I couldn’t stop. My mother wouldn’t stop continuing to make me feel like the absolute worst. I know it was wrong but I just couldn’t think. I feel horrible. I just want to redo all of that. And yeah I have no idea what to do, sitting on the bathroom floor crying. So emotional. Mom doesn’t care. I’m stressed about building this new life growing in me. It was just alot going through my head when throwing everything. Don’t know what to do. But I need to know if I’m insane or not for what I did. I need someone to tell me that they’ve done this before so I don’t feel like the worst person in the world. Or I just need to say something.

Happy Mother’s Day :)