My sexuality makes me feel bad and I don't know what to do.

I write because I don't know what to think about myself.

Note: I'm going to talk about gross stuff, no holds barred. You've been warned.

And I also want to clarify: I have never tried any of the things I'm talking about (..at least not intentionally), actually at the moment they are just fantasies but sooner or later I feel like maybe I will have the courage to make them come true.

I'll get straight to the point: I feel like I have very few limits regarding what I would NOT try in sex. Categorically excluding anything illegal and/or morally wrong, for the rest I consider myself an open book. And I really mean everything, from any type of roleplay and domination, place or way of execution, including even bodily fluids... yes regarding this, through anonymity I'm not afraid to say it, I also mean urine and feces, vomit and blood attract me but much less. To try to make it "safer" (even though there is always a certain degree of risk) I would never even remotely try to swallow either of them, and I would avoid spreading them on bodies in case of wounds due to the possibility of infection (at least for number 2),and use condoms. I would go into more detail but I'll spare the pain for any readers who are already disgusted.

The fact is that I can't do without the rush of adrenaline and the almost animalistic sensation that certain practices create, so forbidden; so taboo... I like the feeling of playing with risk every time but I would also like to do the bare minimum to avoid at least the worst side effects from happening. I often feel guilty for having a mentality like that, I feel dirty (even though outside of sex I am an extremely hygienic person) and wrong. I always try to rationalize it by thinking that it's just sex, outside of sexual matters I'm a very normal person, but often it doesn't work and I continue to feel bad.I tried to change myself, I tried to deny my ego, but unfortunately my nature seems to be this.Many people in these say that it would be good to see a psychologist/psychiatrist, but honestly I would not want to do it. I would not tell anyone about these things except a potential partner of mine who I would trust blindly. The fact is that I know that deep down there is nothing wrong, right?At least this is what I would like to always think without having thoughts and also too bad I'm the only one who thinks that. I can't tell a soul these things at the moment and maybe I never will, it will remain a puzzle in my head.

Am I'm overthinking this? Should I "fix" myself and reprime mi instinct?

I do not know if I will ever be at peace with myself.