Love chatting shit behind my mans back

Anybody else into this? I love my man but tbh I love chatting shit about him when a sexier man is in bed with me. I get them slagging him off or call him whilst fucking with another guy to tell him I love him. Have also made guys where his clothes n a few have even cum on this dumb fuckin childhood bear he has. I csnt stop. Ultimate fantasy is to have someone he knows n trusts in bed w me when he walks in just to rub in the cheating Anyone else?