Losing a will to live.24M.

Honestly I feel I have lost to live anymore.i just don't have any friends post college got over.was in contact with so many people but suddenly everyone has disappeared. Mentally i feel I don't have any capacity to succeed in life.couldnt join the company I was placed in due to unforeseen circumstances so am preparing for bank exams but I just feel to depressed studying alone.

No one gives me any moral support or anything.neighbours talk behind the back how I am sitting at home not doing anything. Parents keep fighting with each other every other day on baseless things which keeps a heat in the house.not like have friend or sibling with whom I can share my pain.

Mother always pessimistic I will not able toclear any exams and just throws unknown comparison on how his/her children earning X lakhs.Every festival I sit alone in house scrolling insta stories of all clg or school friends celebrating with their large group of people. i just don't know how will I am able to live beyond this year .