Had another bad bleed

I flew to Ottawa to be my good friend’s best man at his wedding. He picked me up at the airport and went back to his home, and I just started vomiting blood while standing in his dining room about 2-3 mins after we arrived there. I spent a week in the Ottawa General .

Ended up missing the wedding. Feel so bad for my friend. I think I traumatized him by the amount of blood.

How does everyone deal with the fact this is so random and you never know if today is the day. It’s playing a major part in my mental health decline.

Hope everyone is having a good day. This group is amazing.