Is it valid to feel sad not receiving anything for your birthday from your bf

Problem/Goal: nasad ako kasi wala ako natanggap na anything for my bday from my bf

Context: initially, okay ako (no tampo or anything bc i understand na walang budget) kaso may nag ask na friend namin kubg ano ginawa nya for my bday. di sya sumagot tas napaisip ako, 'oo nga no, wala pala akong natanggap na anything'. sanay naman me since ako yung least favorite sa bahay, wala talaga ako natatanggap or bihira pero siguro since bf ko sya, medyo nagexpect ako na this time itll be different. i feel bad din na i feel this way kasi gets ko nga walang budget pero at the same time may voices in my head na bakit pag ako walang budget i still try to do something simple like letter or handcraft kasi for me its the effort that counts. effort na rin siguro na he went with me sa market na gusto ko puntahan kaya nga hindi ako nagtampo nung bday ko. pero prob ko kasi now, it hurts, when i remember. may nakita pa akong reel na sabi na parang "he'll show you how he feels about you on your bday" something like that. ive never been a fan of celebrating my bday since always may bday blues na im already expecting the worst things to happen when my day comes pero i wanted to change that when he came, let go of the traumas and heal.

Previous attempts: last year he organized a mini surprise with our friends and bought me a cake. di ko pa sa kanya nasasabi to pero its affecting me so much na so im asking here before i tell him abt this tomorrow.

thank u so much sa mga magbibigay ng insights