Does anyone feel what I feel? A desire to drown in his obsession and his control over my life.

There's a feeling haunting me deep within, a desire that permeates every detail of my life. I long to be completely subservient to someone's obsession, someone who controls everything in my life. I want to be their sole focus, the person they think about every moment, even if this means being judged and having my life subservient to their will.

I'm not looking for an ordinary relationship, but something greater. I want to live in their world, where I exist only through them. To be part of their endless obsession, feelings that escalate to the point where I lose sight of everything else around me. I don't want to be just a passing part of their life; I want to be the center of their existence, to live under their control as if we're forever connected.

I don't want to escape this obsession; I want to be completely immersed in it, to have it control my thoughts and my life without any boundaries.

Does anyone else feel this kind of desire? Has anyone ever experienced a similar total obsession?