50 Days!

As advertised.

I'm 50 days out! I'm not miserably depressed or unable to sleep anymore. I am able to use public transport been out walking, shopping, etc. I'm cooking again even with the ever increasing limitations on my dietary choices.

I'm thinking positively about future endeavors, currently trying to con the team I should be allowed back to work by start of June...but I'm positive that's not gonna work. They are big on keeping my new liver doing its thing, which prece.

Ive still got that weird feelings of tight/bulgy round the site. Also can't get used to that patch of skin with like weird nerves or no nerves whatever the hell that sensation comes from. And am debating whether I want to get scar cream or tape yet. Right now I'm low key into them. A nice reminder of the fact I'm here on the other side with a second chance. And I kinda look like I could fight something or someone, esp with the baddie supervillain shaved head.

Anyways I just wanted to update without being a bummer, bc the first few weeks that's legit all I could manage and justifiably so. And if you're still in the miserable phase, I know you'll get to the other side, but don't punish yourself because this shit is hard. And it's a good day today, but there's still bad days now and probably for as long as I'm responsible for my new organ.

(PS did you guys name your new organ?)