I have no friends and I’m truly unhappy about it

I have no friends. I just need to be honest about this because it’s eating me up inside. I’m 36 and will be 37 in July. I had one chance to meet someone at a wedding last year but I bailed because of a phobia surrounding air travel. I have since been working on the air travel phobia but I’m incredibly lonely. I have extremely low energy due to a medical condition I developed in my mid 30s.

I am a fairly sociable , charming person generally when around others. I like to laugh and chat , and work on projects with other people. When I’m isolated I become like a serious person and I dont reach out as much as I could .

I lose my appetite frequently due to sadness and the medical issues .

I sometimes wonder if it’s all connected …spiritually?