I relapsed in January in my addiction and I’m just now picking up the pieces. I’m 30 days sober today

My eating disorder is my addiction. I’m an addict and I have no control over my own ability to make decisions about what I eat and how to eat in a healthy and normal way. I starve myself and use laxatives. I realize it’s not a substance like a drug or alcohol but it’s definitely an addiction and laxatives are drugs to me. I am 30 days off laxatives and eating 2000 calories a day. It requires weekly therapy and psychiatric treatment as well to keep me in the right state of mind to seek help and admit I have no control over my eating addiction. I was living on 700 calories a day and laxing every other day for three months and I lost 45 pounds. I loved the attention I got from men after I started loosing weight. I got hooked. I’ve been active in my addiction three times. When I was 11-14 and when I was 24-26 and my recent relapse from 34-35 this January-April. I celebrate 30 days of sobriety and 30 meetings in 30 days . I realize not everyone needs meetings but I do. I wanted to share this because I don’t know if anyone else is in this subreddit and has an eating addiction? If there is anyone who is able to be a sobriety supporter I’d really appreciate it. I’m looking for sober supports online.