Breastfeeding failure

I gave birth almost four weeks ago to a beautiful baby girl. From the very beginning, breastfeeding has been an incredibly painful experience. During my three days in the hospital, I kept asking the nurses for help, but it didn’t make a difference — they ended up telling me to give her formula. The lactation consultant was too busy to see me.

Now my breasts are full of milk, everything hurts, and my baby is rejecting the breast because she prefers the bottle. I feel like a failure — rejected and heartbroken. I’m pumping as much as I can so she still gets about 70% of my milk.

But every time she refuses the breast, I cry. I feel like I’m not good enough… like she doesn’t love me. I know the hormones are playing a big part in this, but it still hurts so much.

My last resort: Medela - SNS (https://www.medela.com/en/breastfeeding-pumping/products/special-feeding-needs/supplemental-nursing-system-sns?productId=1015