i broke the chains that held me down

after five and a half months of chains that held me i freed myself today and i’m proud of myself because i was scared. i do believe that never in my life i send a message this long or negative to someone but i couldn‘t take it any longer nor hold my feelings back of how i‘ve been feeling for months.

i kept quiet and gulped it all down out of love but that‘s over. i‘m more worth than the honestly abuse and shit i‘ve gotten. i‘m not a toy or anyone that deserved to be treated like trash. i‘m a human being with feelings too and no one deserves this.

i should have left once he put me last the first time, he treated me like trash but i‘be been naive and dumb. tried to understand his mental condition but it‘s not an excuse especially not all the time for someones behaviour.

i pray for all people out there and tell you break those contacts to a person if you notice anything that seems like a red flag or you feel mistreated. don‘t be me and take the shit you get because you love someone deeply.