[M4F] I don't entirely know how to approach this, But subby kind of guy... seeking an open minded woman to abuse me.

Okay, So, Like the title says, Im not entirely sure how to approach this or what exactly it is that I'm looking for. But I was in an abusive relationship for 8 years... and current life circumstances has me... craving some of those feelings again.

I know. That's weird. and probably at least a little unhealthy. I don't pretend to understand it. But I know I would like to at least try to address, indulge and engage these cravings.

I know that men kind of suck, and there's lots of women that enjoy being mean to men as a result. So I'm hoping to find a woman that might be willing to be verbally, mentally, emotionally, and sexually abusive to me. I have a particular interest in being manipulated and gaslit.

I identify as a switch but I definitely lean significantly more to the submissive side. Most of my kinks tend to be open ended, but as you can imagine, I am into humiliation, SPH, emasculation, femdom, cuckolding, forced bi... The reality is that very little Ive encountered sexually turns me off (not that everything turns more on, to clarify)

So I don't know what this looks like, I really love the idea of being lied to directly to my face, over and over, and not caving on it no matter what, unless doing so is likely to be done in a way that holds maximum negative impact. I really like the idea of being made to feel very small and pathetic, Id honestly love for a woman to make me cry. I would prefer to engage this on an ongoing/recurring basis but also open to any short term as well.

I love pretty much all women. I am not expressly seeking a dominant woman, either. Please feel free to question me about my experiences and my life circumstances and use anything I tell you against me if that appeals to you. If any of this piques your interest, or makes you feel like reaching out, I would love to hear from you. I hope to hear from you.