I will never be anything but ugly and unwanted

It happened again. I will never be enough for anyone because i am ugly. I understand why i am hypersexual and desperate and clingy and its because if people arent into you sexually and into your looks they wont ever prioritise you. Im so tired of it. Id love some actual connection. I wish i could have someone find me attractive and want me. No, i dont believe in platonic affection. Because any friend you ever make will abandon you when sex is on the table. I hate how i look and ive fought so hard to change it. I just want to hide away from the world. Im so ugly.