I'm tired of being alone.

I'm 17 (M) and I feel as if I've been isolated my entire life. I feel like barely anyone acknowledges my existence in my everyday life. And I often spend most of my days by myself. Alone. And whenever I feel upset or depressed, I've always either repressed it or just went to bed. But I'm sick of it.

I've never been to a hangout. I've never had a sleep over. I've never been to a party. And I barely have any irl friends. And I use the term 'friends' loosely. More like acquaintances.

I just someone to be there for me. To listen. To understand. To care. Just someone to listen to my sob story crap and give a damn. And someone I can care about.

I'm just tired of feeling like an afterthought. I want to feel like I matter.