Weight loss didn’t fix my social anxiety. I still feel like a loser.

So I had a work gathering today—probably over 200 people there. I’ve gone from 255 to 145 lbs, and I thought by now, maybe some of the social anxiety would go away. Nope. Not even close.

The moment I walked in and saw all those unfamiliar faces, I felt my chest tighten. I couldn’t breathe right. I was shaking. I couldn’t even look up. I ended up sitting alone, pretending to scroll through my phone just so I didn’t have to make eye contact with anyone. It felt like everyone could still see me as the fat girl. Like nothing had changed.

Yes, I’m proud of the weight I’ve lost. But honestly? It only fixed how I look—not how I feel. Deep down, I still feel like that same insecure, unwanted version of myself. Like no matter what size I am, I’m still not enough. And that really hurts.