Noan (Nostalgia of a narcissist)

no one has felt like this before 

no one has felt like me 

this sensation, 

this is special 

this sound, 

this smell, 

this memory 

of a moment 

if you only knew 

if you could only imagine 

if you could ever, 

feel like this… 

but I don’t blame you 

it’s not your fault 

I don’t expect you to understand 

I remember a place 

a time 

a feeling 

lost forever 

lost in the abyss… 

lost in time 

lost in space 

only I have it now 

only in my mind 

this fleeting glimpse 

into the past 

so sudden in its arrival 

so unexpected 

yet so predictable 

but also tragic, 

sad, and depressing 

for everyone else 

never to experience 

never involved 

never to live 

to have it all 

I have it all 

I will die with it…

 

of course you have yours too 

but no offense 

trust me 

it’s not the same 

ok, ok so maybe… 

I hear what you are saying 

but let’s entertain the thought 

if you felt even close 

then I would know 

you’re trapped in a loop 

unable to let go 

is this good? 

is this curse or blessing? 

time will tell 

and all we have is time 

until we don’t 

and then it doesn’t matter 

none of this ever mattered 

but it’s so special… 

have you felt like this before? 

no one has 

but me