I’m need opinions

Hello I am 19 years old and drinking everyday I know my parents are alcoholics and my dad had to quit because he would get really mad when he was drunk. He would make unreasonable reasons of why he was mad. I’m scared that I will become just like him. I’m going into sophomore year of college of a big party school and I’ve been having trouble to have self control of going out. But when I do go out I totally blackout every time. When I drink at my house I am more controlled and don’t black out but I do have a constant buzz through out the day. I’m just worried that it will turn into something worse and something i won’t be able to control. I just need advice and I need to know if this is normal behavior because on my end it seems like it is