[F4M] What happens to the girls who aren't hot enough to attract the good guys? (Cock worship, uneven & unfair relationships, age gap, raceplay, misogyny, etc)

Hey guys, my name's Lisa and I'm a experienced roleplayer, looking for new partners. I'll say upfront I tend to seek out complex emotional dynamics, so I'm only looking for mature partners who're up for deep brainstorming and worldbuilding. I write in third person but I'm ambivalent about which tense you use, and I fairly exclusively chat and play on Discord. Reddit Chat does not work for me. I'm a big planner and I like developing out character motivations and ideas, so if you aren't at least as excited by tossing ideas around as you are by roleplaying, we might be a bad fit.

Mostly I'm looking for natural character progression and motivations, unfair and uneven dynamics, less-than-attractive characters, and a focus on the man receiving oral satisfaction while feeling no need to reciprocate. I love the one-sided nature of blowjobs, the subservience of kneeling down and satisfying a selfish man. Let's put me in the role of a desperate, lonely younger woman, opposite an older man who becomes increasingly selfish and entitled. Where her deep need for male approval makes her willing to accept a very one-sided relationship that heavily prioritizes his satisfaction over her own, and where she has to bend over backwards to convince herself that actually this is okay. She knows she's not good-looking enough, she knows that she has to do this stuff to keep a man interested in her. She doesn't have to like it, she just has to be willing to do it anyway. I like scenes with older, overweight men. I like dynamics where both characters feel like they're settling. She's desperate not to be alone, so she's willing to please him. He doesn't find her particularly attractive, but she does seem willing to let him explore the things his ex-wife wouldn't.

This all said, I don't like predatory men, I don't like calculated plans to corrupt her or manipulate her, so much as I like situations where things happen, followed by escalations. As much as corruption is fun, I think it's more fun when it's mutual and natural, rather than being intentional and guided by one party. I like crossing lines, points of no return. Transgressions that permanently change the relationships. White lies of "oh, I love swallowing your cum" being taken as pure gospel, stuff like that. I'd rather the man be opportunistic than manipulative, happy to get his rocks off, but uninterested in her pleasure. I like playing the kind of girl who'd enable that behaviour, who'd let him off the hook, who'd reassure him that it's okay, that she likes it anyway. I'm interested in scenes where the man might be lonely, self-loathing, depressed, etc. Maybe he's consuming too much porn, he's a little too-online, his opinions are getting a little weird. He's still a decent guy, but his fantasy life might be getting a little darker, or his private opinions might be becoming a little unpalatable for polite company. So when he meets a younger woman who's so desperate for approval that she's willing to enable and encourage these things rather than shun him, he finds the attention exciting, even if she's not as hot as the porno girls he's now accustomed to.

Kinks: Blowjobs, oral service, general cocksuckery, swallowing, facials, handjobs, titjobs, rimming, anal, painal, cock worship, misogyny, vaginal denial/neglect, verbal abuse, physical abuse, big (legal) age gaps, humiliation, misogyny, raceplay. Selfishness, entitlement, being held to impossible standards, self-loathing, rejection, shame, embarrassment, feeling small, backhanded compliments, inferiority complexes, praise, losers, incels, drunks, rednecks, barflies, etc.

Limits: Kids, animals, scat, vomit, incest (including calling anyone Daddy), transactional sex, anime bullshit, surreal/sci-fi/fantasy kinks, traditional D/s roles and formality, anyone who uses the term "alpha male" seriously, cuckold stuff, anything breeding/pregnancy related. Probably more.

I know DPP prompts require a scenario, but I'm personally less hung up on the specific scenario as the vibes within it, so this is far from set-in-stone. While I'm happy to use this kind of scenario as a jumping-off point, I prefer tossing ideas around and finding the right scenario when I find the right partner.

She's his neighbour down the hall. Both being night owls, they've bumped into each other a few times in the building, or in the neighbourhood, and eventually established a casual, platonic friendship, occasionally watching late-night TV or movies together, having the occasional drink or smoke, that kind of thing. It's innocuous enough, despite the wide age gap between them. At some point, she develops an idle crush on him, which gradually spirals. Eventually she'd become privy to his search history, or gain some other type of insight into his porn habits/tastes. She'd obsess, eventually making an offer he can't refuse, telling him how obsessed she is with something she secretly knows he fantasizes about, even if she's not the type of girl who's typically a part of those fantasies.