NSV - A guy bought me (just ME) a drink while out dancing :)

I know this will seem a little silly to a lot of you, but honestly writing this right now, I feel like I'm standing on a stage giving an Oscar acceptance speech. I'm 25F and for the past year I have been working to lose weight. I started in late June of last year at 264 pounds, and have worked my way down to 175. I have been in an annoying little plateau for the past 2 months where I hovered between 185 - 180, but am fortunately back down to my lowest at 175 and am seeing progress again.

My little "breaking point" last year that started to make me lose weight was a bit dumb from an outside perspective, but it was impactful to me. Basically, I had met up with my friend (who has always been very skinny) for brunch, and afterwards we took a walk through the nearby park. I live in NYC so any NYC residents know how packed the parks get on weekends in the summer. As we walked through the park, we saw a guy selling used books at a table, so we approached the table and looked through the books, and he sparked a conversation with my friend. He ONLY talked to her and wouldn't even make eye contact with me. I tried to smile, be friendly, and join in, but if you've been fat before you KNOW how it feels when a guy only wants to talk to your pretty friend, even if it's super subtle.

When I got home later that day, it set something off in me. Like I was just sick of always being the fat friend. I was just sick and tired and frustrated of the treatment. Not by my friends, but how differently I'm always treated compared to them. I hated never being the one to get hit on. I hated feeling invisible when I'd go out and everyone else would be approached by a guy except for me. I hated having to act confident and smile and look perfectly content when a guy yet again only approached me to talk to my friend. I hated seeing how talkative and happy guys were talking to my friends and then their mood would entirely shift or they would avoid eye contact when I would say hello or even just give them a friendly smile. I made an appointment that day with a doctor and another appointment with a dietitian and from there started my weight loss.

Anyways, last night I really felt like going out but it was cold and rainy and I couldn't get anyone to go out with me, so I decided to try this club nearby that was having an early 2000s pop night and just go and dance (hey, it burns calories!). I put on a tight little black dress that I could NEVER wear when I was heavier but I thought I looked cute. When I got there, I saw a bunch of other girls my age dancing and within 5 minutes we had formed a little group and were having a blast. I was absolutely not there to meet guys, but I accidentally made eye contact with this one (really cute) guy nearby and he came right over to me and was very flirty. After a few minutes of trying to talk to each other (shouting over the music lol) he asked if he could buy me a drink. I was FLOORED. That had NEVER happened to me before in my life!! Ofc I said sure, and before anyone freaks out about accepting drinks from strangers I came with him to the bar and watched the bartender make it, and it was handed right to me so the guy didn't touch it at all. I'm not really looking to date right now because I have some body-related trauma and a lot of insecurities I still am trying to work out, and I told the guy this (not about the insecurities but that I'm just not really looking for anything rn) when he asked if he could give me his number, but he was still really cute and I went home really happy last night :)

Sorry this post got long, but I am just like WOW!!!! Like this is what my life could be. This is what my life should be. I've never been the girl who got free drinks. I would always be envious of my friends when they could seemingly walk into a bar or club, make eye contact with any stranger there and have a drink appear in their hand a second later. It just feels like after losing this much weight there's been a shift. I still have a ways to go to get to my goal weight and I know I'm still in the overweight range, but I just feel a huge surge of motivation now, like my efforts over the past year have finally been leading to something!