I wish I was more compassionate towards my mother when she was going through the perimenopausal hell :(

I'm 50 years old and been on the perimenopausal phase for almost 10 years now. I'ts been a roller-coaster ride in hell for me. I now look back and think about my mom's peri and menopausal behaviors and how I wish I was more compassionate towards her plight. There's so much regret on my end. She passed away last year, after suffering for 7 years from ALS and I miss her so very much. What makes me feel very guilty is that I was not empathetic towards her when she was going through this peri hell. She would yell at me and other family members, go into a rage, cry at the drop of a hat, and just was sad overall. My dad made things worse for her as he abandoned her in pursuit of his own fulfillment in agriculture and farming after he retired at 58. My mom was so lonely and sad. I feel terrible when I think about her life now.

Just wish I was more aware of peri and menopausal issues. I had zero awareness and education about it when my mom was going through it when I was younger :(