I’m so tired of letting a boy take over my brain

i’m sick of wondering and playing games. i don’t know if he likes me back and i don’t want to admit and be vulnerable. we’re friends and research partners, and if he doesn’t like me back it’ll be an awkward next three years at uni, so i’d like to avoid but so i want to get an answer because im tired of mixed messages and decoding his long looks.

i just want to be able to focus on university like im supposed to