Im tired of being mischaracterized

People just don’t understand the extent of social anxiety or the issues that come along with it. if I’m silent people think I’m angry and if I’m laughing because I’m nervous people I’m awkward. When I’m by myself nobody approaches me and when I try being friendly and talkative people think I’m out of character. People make me out to be the one who wanted to be intimidating, but everyday I’m on edge because I have to go into the world full of people that I’m terrified of. nobody understands how displaced I feel. What was once just social anxiety morphed into misanthropy. I was genuinely afraid to be around people but when they felt frustrated by my silence they made me out to be some type of criminal when I was pretty clearly uncomfortable and being angry in any of the contexts where it was assumed i was would make little sense. who would speak quietly to a random person they don’t even know just because they’re angry or rude? why is anxiety never assumed to be the reason. I’m tired of people.