I have no idea what my sexuality is at all

I'm 22, I'm a girl, I just graduated college...I thought I'd have it figured out by now but nope. I need help and I have zero clue who to talk to. My sexual history is very strange and very few. I'm not celibate or anything...but I've never had intercourse before because #1. I don't want to deal with any of the birth control garbage #2. I let men rule my life in regards to purity culture #3. I don't trust men & like to punish them by not giving my body away #4. Catholic guilt. I genuinely dislike most every guy I talk to. I've quite literally ran out of places before because I actually feel physically nauseous being around them. The times I have hooked up with them I've been obscenely drunk and don't feel anything towards them. But I enjoy the sexual aspects. I've hated every date I've gone on with a man. I don't really enjoy talking to most men either. But at the same time, I wonder if I just haven't met the right guy. It seems I attract very bad sorts. Now on the opposing side I have women. I find them to be extremely attractive. I've loved kissing them and cuddling them and being with them. But then there's the sex stuff. Tried it once, and I did not find it to be very enjoyable. It was weird for me. But then again, it's like maybe I haven't met the right girl. Maybe I actually need to enjoy their company before doing that stuff? But my worry is dating somebody and then finding out I'm not attracted to them. Like if I haven't enjoyed any of my dating experience with guys, then how the hell am I supposed to be in a relationship with one? How am I even supposed to figure out my sexuality with one? And with women, would if get close to a girl and then find how I'm not sexually attracted to her. It's all awful and confusing and terrible and I don't know what to do. Please give me advice if you can!