As much as I try, I can’t get over it

As much as I try getting having GHSV-2, I can’t. It consumes my thoughts daily. I’m one of the lucky men that has found a loving girlfriend despite of this, but I still can’t look in the mirror at myself. All of my friends and family don’t know, and they all think I’m fine and dandy and thriving in life.

Also, my girlfriend’s parents are very religious people. I come from a Christian background as well, so they think the world of me. They think I am this perfect gift for their daughter. If they knew my secret, they would likely have a totally different opinion of me, especially considering that the actions that led me here for far from Saint-like. I just feel like a fraud whenever I’m around her family.